today we set up our stereo Today, as I was driving home, I thought about Christmas Lights and darkened skies and headphones playing my favorite music. Most of all, me laying there, enjoying it all. Relaxation.

If there's one thing I miss about high school and living at home, it's being able to sink away into your ROOM...(grown ups really don't have ROOMS anymore...they have houses. So it's almost like a whole secret cove has been taken away from us, even though we don't really think about it in that way).

I can remember going to bed before 10:00 on a school night, my room dark with a hint of moonlight, my parents sound asleep or clicking away on the computer in the next room. Sometimes, if the season was right, I would have red Christmas lights surrounding my bookshelf, and I would leave them on as I did sit-ups in many different variations, 20 times each, my headphones playing Five Iron Frenzy or Weezer, my heart racing with thoughts of the week.

And as I drove home, I wished it was dark outside and that I could lay on a bed that was made with a stereo on a trunk and just lay there and think of any other day

other than a day spent at work. And then I realized that my days will be of work and how unfortunate that I was so miserable WITHOUT it

and semi-miserable WITH IT,

but yet, so many good things are ahead...like being a mom and new conversations with my best friend

and just being able to see the sun shine through the leaves and branches of those ever familiar birch trees.  ¶ 7:52 PM